In relationships, all of us have a part of our self that we attempt to protect.
For some, the process of growing in relationship means addressing those walls and removing them. Choosing to trust and allow vulnerability.
On the other hand, for others a wall seems a necessity and they work to build it up as fast as possible.
A wall gives the feeling of protecting identity. If someone cannot see the real you, then they cannot reject you.
A wall gives the sense of control. By controlling people’s behavior and what is acceptable in relationship, you feel like the one in charge.
A wall gives the illusion of effort. Because you are working hard to maintain your wall, it feels like working on the relationship.
A wall gives an excuse. When another person gets tired of trying to break through your wall, you can then blame them for the failure of the relationship.
Problem is, not only do walls protect from what’s outside, they trap you on the inside. They steal your freedom.
Those you present your wall to are not responding to you, but to your facade. That does not change the feeling of rejection.
It is lonely within your borders because your true self will not feel loved.
How are you keeping people out? Is it a compulsion? An issue of performance? Fault finding? Something else entirely?
Taking down a wall required developing awareness of identity and the lies you are believing. Some of the bricks will be easy and some painful.
Because of the lies, your wall is built upon sand, that is why it is so exhausting to maintain.
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